I wear the Purple Crown...

...or so I've been told. I really don't know how to take that. Am I the martyr the world has been missing? I've already tried dying for nothing, surely I can muster dying for a noble cause. Well, nobility is relative I suppose...as is everything we recognize in life. Time, love, hate, space, existence, its all about how you take it. I take the strides in stress. God, if only I could let go of my woes.

My grandma summed it up to me seeking out ANYTHING to quell boredom. If I get bored, I get crazy. Instead, I stay loopy on the locks of "love" I am constantly trimming for the needy. I feel greedy, yet I want nothingness. Except to lose my reliance on the dinero.

God, I am in a constant drain of dreariness when concerned with the greenbacks. I know, it's a constant topic...it's due to the fact it's CONSTANTLY on my mind. Hopefully the ZZZZs will return when I get out of debt. If not, well...we'll see what the consequences are...

Anyway, here's the Amazon description of the definitive text regarding the Purple Crown theory: "The Purple Crown: The Politics of Martyrdom...Tripp York exhibits how Christianity's ultimate act of witnessing, martyrdom, is an inherently political act. By refusing to accept such modern dichotomies such as mind/body, sacred/secular, and the public/private, York argues that the path of Christianity cannot but lead to a confrontation with the same powers that crucified Jesus. The martyrs as ones who die like Christ bring forth, via memory, the moment in which all the world was simultaneously exposed as fallen and redeemed. York explores this theme historically, theologically and through biography, such as in the recent martyr Oscar Romero."

I don't like this. NOT AT ALL.

No one's been reading this jargon, and if you have, I know and apologize as this post is garbage. Don't worry, I am getting back into the swing of things, I just got somewhat lost in the last few weeks...trust me, I have tons of turmoil on tap. I'm about to let it seep to the surface. Shit should be delicious. Wait and watch.